Post by CHLOE LEAH O'DAY on May 18, 2011 14:35:23 GMT -5
I'm losing myself
Trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak
I wonder if he ever does any work anymore.. I mean, when I get home from school, he's always in the same place. the couch. bottle of whiskey in hand. and a spare bottle beside him. how does he get the alcohol though if he doesn't have money? or pay rent? maybe he does jobs while i'm at school. because all he does when I'm home is yell and blame me for irrational things. i can't live like this forever.. I don't know how much longer I can do this..
school isn't any better... there's this.. girl. she... makes me feel so ... little and.... close to nothing. maybe she's right... maybe i am...
-C
Trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak
I wonder if he ever does any work anymore.. I mean, when I get home from school, he's always in the same place. the couch. bottle of whiskey in hand. and a spare bottle beside him. how does he get the alcohol though if he doesn't have money? or pay rent? maybe he does jobs while i'm at school. because all he does when I'm home is yell and blame me for irrational things. i can't live like this forever.. I don't know how much longer I can do this..
school isn't any better... there's this.. girl. she... makes me feel so ... little and.... close to nothing. maybe she's right... maybe i am...
-C
